First blog news
I have heard a lot of information over the years about blogging and how good it is for people who like to write their thoughts out on some kind of medium. Because I had never actually started a blog and I will be getting married tomorrow I thought now would be a great time to start.
March 29th, 2008 is my wedding day which excites me a great deal and that is the reason for beginning this blog.
My life, as with most people, has been filled with up's and down's but for the most part has been very fulfilling. Six years ago though, that started to change. At the time, I had been hit with a divorce and was dealing with the fact that I wasnt going to be able to spend every waking moment close to my daughter. After the divorce I realized on thing: If I was to get on with my life I needed to develop some very meaningful relationships with people around and first and foremost a relationship with God.
I had found it difficult over the years before my divorce to bring God into my life because of poor relationships I had with other people. I felt embarrassed in front of God because of the marriage I had let deteriorate and felt as though I would never return to favor in his eyes. I finally started back to church where I had been a member for all of my childhood and some of my adult years and I started to realize something very important. No one there looked at me differently. No one there asked prying questions about what went wrong or why we didn't try to work everything out. They just very plainly accepted me for who I was and what situation I was in. Something I deperately needed.
As I started to build relationships that were meaningful I realized another thing. While I was still that old person, new habits were starting to take hold. I started enjoying church and getting a true sense of who I was and who God wanted me to be. That first few months at church were hard but God was challenging me to change and become a different person. I made a lot of new friends and felt as though I belonged. I also started working on being a good father. It was also important to me that I show my daughter that I could be committed to being there for her when she needed me the most. That decision has been one of the best I have made.
Something else that I realized was that God had been preparing me for what was to come. That being a wonderful relationship with my best friend Becca. Becca and I met at church and quickly became friends. We talked on the phone once in awhile and saw each other at church regularly. As the years went by and our realtionship grew I was well aware that there were some feelings for Becca that I was a little uncomfortable with at first. We hung out as much as we could but always had other things going on in our lives. I was still living some of my old lifestyle and hadn't fully committed to giving some of the old habits up and Becca had things going on in her life as well. There were times that we drifted apart slightly but we always seemd to renew our friendship.
It wasn't until we started a Bible study that we developed a deeper sense of what might be happening. We had been involved in this study for several weeks meeeting on Thursday nights to go over what we had studied the week before and had discovered that we really enjoyed having this time together. It was late one Thursday night (Friday morning really) that I realized that I was feeling more than just friendship was in the works for Becca and I. I got up toleave her house and as was common I gave her a hug and suddenyl without thinking much about it I kissed her on the neck. Thinking I might have stepped over the line I drew back and asked "was that weird?". But Becca was feeling the same thing I had been. God had just decided that this moment was perfect for both of us. That was August 24th of 2006 and we haven't strayed from each other's side since then. Loving God and each other to the fullest extent that is possible in this worldly life.
To My Family:
You have loved and supported me for so long it is hard to imagine where it all started. I could not have done it without you.
To Becca:
What a wonderful gift you are from God. I cannot express my love for you in words alone. I hope that someday you read this and realize that I do LOVE YOU MORE!
To Avery:
Who knew that when you were born that you would have made such a huge impact on a family. Daddy knows that you are something special and that, just like Becca, you are a gift from God. I love you very much and hope that this day is special for you as well.
I hope that anyone who reads this knows what it takes to put your thoughts down into words. Fairly easy for some not so easy for others.
I think that writing (or typing) out my thoughts is a wonderful way to organize my brain when most of the time our lives are filled with stuff that doesn't matter much. I wanted so much to share my thoughts in some way but now that I have it all written I am asking myself "who will read this?" It is all kind of mushy and sappy but it is my life and there isn't anything that is more important than your realtionship with God and with your loved ones. I think that is what has driven me to start this blog. To share and inspire myself to do much greater things through God's help.
March 29th, 2008 is my wedding day which excites me a great deal and that is the reason for beginning this blog.
My life, as with most people, has been filled with up's and down's but for the most part has been very fulfilling. Six years ago though, that started to change. At the time, I had been hit with a divorce and was dealing with the fact that I wasnt going to be able to spend every waking moment close to my daughter. After the divorce I realized on thing: If I was to get on with my life I needed to develop some very meaningful relationships with people around and first and foremost a relationship with God.
I had found it difficult over the years before my divorce to bring God into my life because of poor relationships I had with other people. I felt embarrassed in front of God because of the marriage I had let deteriorate and felt as though I would never return to favor in his eyes. I finally started back to church where I had been a member for all of my childhood and some of my adult years and I started to realize something very important. No one there looked at me differently. No one there asked prying questions about what went wrong or why we didn't try to work everything out. They just very plainly accepted me for who I was and what situation I was in. Something I deperately needed.
As I started to build relationships that were meaningful I realized another thing. While I was still that old person, new habits were starting to take hold. I started enjoying church and getting a true sense of who I was and who God wanted me to be. That first few months at church were hard but God was challenging me to change and become a different person. I made a lot of new friends and felt as though I belonged. I also started working on being a good father. It was also important to me that I show my daughter that I could be committed to being there for her when she needed me the most. That decision has been one of the best I have made.
Something else that I realized was that God had been preparing me for what was to come. That being a wonderful relationship with my best friend Becca. Becca and I met at church and quickly became friends. We talked on the phone once in awhile and saw each other at church regularly. As the years went by and our realtionship grew I was well aware that there were some feelings for Becca that I was a little uncomfortable with at first. We hung out as much as we could but always had other things going on in our lives. I was still living some of my old lifestyle and hadn't fully committed to giving some of the old habits up and Becca had things going on in her life as well. There were times that we drifted apart slightly but we always seemd to renew our friendship.
It wasn't until we started a Bible study that we developed a deeper sense of what might be happening. We had been involved in this study for several weeks meeeting on Thursday nights to go over what we had studied the week before and had discovered that we really enjoyed having this time together. It was late one Thursday night (Friday morning really) that I realized that I was feeling more than just friendship was in the works for Becca and I. I got up toleave her house and as was common I gave her a hug and suddenyl without thinking much about it I kissed her on the neck. Thinking I might have stepped over the line I drew back and asked "was that weird?". But Becca was feeling the same thing I had been. God had just decided that this moment was perfect for both of us. That was August 24th of 2006 and we haven't strayed from each other's side since then. Loving God and each other to the fullest extent that is possible in this worldly life.
To My Family:
You have loved and supported me for so long it is hard to imagine where it all started. I could not have done it without you.
To Becca:
What a wonderful gift you are from God. I cannot express my love for you in words alone. I hope that someday you read this and realize that I do LOVE YOU MORE!
To Avery:
Who knew that when you were born that you would have made such a huge impact on a family. Daddy knows that you are something special and that, just like Becca, you are a gift from God. I love you very much and hope that this day is special for you as well.
I hope that anyone who reads this knows what it takes to put your thoughts down into words. Fairly easy for some not so easy for others.
I think that writing (or typing) out my thoughts is a wonderful way to organize my brain when most of the time our lives are filled with stuff that doesn't matter much. I wanted so much to share my thoughts in some way but now that I have it all written I am asking myself "who will read this?" It is all kind of mushy and sappy but it is my life and there isn't anything that is more important than your realtionship with God and with your loved ones. I think that is what has driven me to start this blog. To share and inspire myself to do much greater things through God's help.
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