The Struggle
Struggle: to make strenuous or violent efforts in the face of difficulties or opposition 2 : to proceed with difficulty or with great effort.
Merriam Websters Dictionary
I have been struggling but it has been extremely hard to pinpoint the source of the struggle. It seems lately I have struggled with the one thing that seems to help me sort out everything: My blog.
This is an avenue that in years past I had never thought of using to vent frustrations or just "air things out" and reorganize my brain. Most days I strain under the immense pressure that others in my family do not see. In my head there are a thousand things flying around and not one of them making sense. I am finding it difficult to move on from my last job which I lost due to financial reasons within the company. I struggle with not seeing my daughter regularly even though she is just a few miles up the road. As anyone with children will tell you, being without your children can haunt you. Especially if you happen to be divorced. I am struggling with feelings of inadequacy for my family. My wife is very understanding during this period of unemployment but does she realize what I am really going through?
I can't say that my situation is any different or worse than anyone else out there right now but I can say that it is an extremely difficult time for me. I keep hearing that "everything happens for a reason" and I can truly say that I am sick of hearing that statement from people who have jobs. I am not saying their life is grand or perfect but they DO have jobs. I guess for a man that is what it really comes down to. Self-worth, sense of purpose and providing for your family is what most men want. Unfortunately, in today's economy, it is getting harder and harder to do those things. News reports are grim and unrelenting. Politicians and reporters definitely live in different worlds. Politicians think that they know what is best for the people of America and reporters report on what they think the politicians should be doing. It would be scary to think what would happen if you truly had an honest person on either side of that fence.
I seem to have lost track here but let's see if I can recover.
America is struggling as well. America is like a woman: She wants to know that she is secure and taken care of at all times. We want our jobs, our stock market and our houses to be secure. Without that, more troublesome times seem to be near.
We all struggle with different things. Not one of us is free of guilt or shame about something in our lives. Some of us admit that and some don't. Whatever the case may be with the people reading this, think of this one thing: Without your failures would anyone else have succeeded?
It is a perpetual motion of life. I fail and the next person learns from that failure and not only succeeds, but maybe finds a cure for a terrible disease or invents the next big thing to make life easier.
I am finding more and more that these sessions on my laptop help but never really clear the mind of what seems to be keeping me up at night. I do find it is almost like therapy, everyday gets just a little easier.
Merriam Websters Dictionary
I have been struggling but it has been extremely hard to pinpoint the source of the struggle. It seems lately I have struggled with the one thing that seems to help me sort out everything: My blog.
This is an avenue that in years past I had never thought of using to vent frustrations or just "air things out" and reorganize my brain. Most days I strain under the immense pressure that others in my family do not see. In my head there are a thousand things flying around and not one of them making sense. I am finding it difficult to move on from my last job which I lost due to financial reasons within the company. I struggle with not seeing my daughter regularly even though she is just a few miles up the road. As anyone with children will tell you, being without your children can haunt you. Especially if you happen to be divorced. I am struggling with feelings of inadequacy for my family. My wife is very understanding during this period of unemployment but does she realize what I am really going through?
I can't say that my situation is any different or worse than anyone else out there right now but I can say that it is an extremely difficult time for me. I keep hearing that "everything happens for a reason" and I can truly say that I am sick of hearing that statement from people who have jobs. I am not saying their life is grand or perfect but they DO have jobs. I guess for a man that is what it really comes down to. Self-worth, sense of purpose and providing for your family is what most men want. Unfortunately, in today's economy, it is getting harder and harder to do those things. News reports are grim and unrelenting. Politicians and reporters definitely live in different worlds. Politicians think that they know what is best for the people of America and reporters report on what they think the politicians should be doing. It would be scary to think what would happen if you truly had an honest person on either side of that fence.
I seem to have lost track here but let's see if I can recover.
America is struggling as well. America is like a woman: She wants to know that she is secure and taken care of at all times. We want our jobs, our stock market and our houses to be secure. Without that, more troublesome times seem to be near.
We all struggle with different things. Not one of us is free of guilt or shame about something in our lives. Some of us admit that and some don't. Whatever the case may be with the people reading this, think of this one thing: Without your failures would anyone else have succeeded?
It is a perpetual motion of life. I fail and the next person learns from that failure and not only succeeds, but maybe finds a cure for a terrible disease or invents the next big thing to make life easier.
I am finding more and more that these sessions on my laptop help but never really clear the mind of what seems to be keeping me up at night. I do find it is almost like therapy, everyday gets just a little easier.
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