Judd's Blog

Struggle: to make strenuous or violent efforts in the face of difficulties or opposition 2 : to proceed with difficulty or with great effort. Merriam Websters Dictionary I have been struggling but it has been extremely hard to pinpoint the source of the struggle. It seems lately I have struggled with the one thing that seems to help me sort out everything: My blog. This is an avenue that in years past I had never thought of using to vent frustrations or just "air things out" and reorganize my brain. Most days I strain under the immense pressure that others in my family do not see. In my head there are a thousand things flying around and not one of them making sense. I am finding it difficult to move on from my last job which I lost due to financial reasons within the company. I struggle with not seeing my daughter regularly even though she is just a few miles up the road. As anyone with children will tell you, being without your children can haunt you. Especially if you h...

I have a friend who seems to always think that things happen to him because of some injustice he has done to someone else. He is always asking the question "Why me?" or "What have I done to deserve this?" It is a theme that is heard all to often in these times of blaming others instead of taking responsibility for our actions. It is a hard task to swallow when we realize that we have done something to either harm ourselves or harm others. It is in that moment that we can choose to take responsibility or to blame someone else for the problem and make ourselves feel more comfortable. I have recently been watching a show that outlines the story of two friends that grew up in show business together. In their earlier days as teenagers they enjoyed immense success. As the success grew both young men had to deal with issues of abuse by people they knew and both had very important decisions to make. While both men now still have their issues one of these men has done ...

Well, I promised to keep in touch after the wedding and that hasn't worked out the way I wanted it to. We have been very busy and working nearly 70 hours a week. It frustrates me to think that no matter at which point in your life you decide to get married, it is never easy. I am definitely not saying that I thought this would be easy but I did truly want to be able to spend weekends with my family. Not a lot to ask but my employer has definitely had other plans. I have some hard decisions to make in the coming weeks. Do I stay where I am and become hardened by the retail world or do I move on to other things while staying in the tech field (so to speak). I love technology and the joy it gives me to learn new and different things every day. The problem is that I find myself disgruntled by complaints by customers everyday about things that I have no control over. While my employer has been very successful over the years they have failed to do so in a retail environment. So now, ...

Well, it is 6:15 on March 29th and I have been up for almost two hours now. I thought I would sleep well last night after the long day we had but I guess I was wrong. You have so much running through your head that I think that your brain never really shuts down in these situations. We had the rehearsal dinner last night and all went well. Seems as though some of my family and friends were intent on giving me a "roast" as a wedding present but it was all in good fun. We had a good dinner and laughed alot. My mom put together a dvd of some pictures of Becca and I so everyone got to see us as kids and us together as we start our new life. I am sad that it will all be over soon. Mostly because that means that my brother and his family will be heading back to their home in Australia. It has been great to see them and I wish they could stay a little longer but they will be heading to California for a few days and then back home. All of our other friends who are from out of town wi...

I have heard a lot of information over the years about blogging and how good it is for people who like to write their thoughts out on some kind of medium. Because I had never actually started a blog and I will be getting married tomorrow I thought now would be a great time to start. March 29th, 2008 is my wedding day which excites me a great deal and that is the reason for beginning this blog. My life, as with most people, has been filled with up's and down's but for the most part has been very fulfilling. Six years ago though, that started to change. At the time, I had been hit with a divorce and was dealing with the fact that I wasnt going to be able to spend every waking moment close to my daughter. After the divorce I realized on thing: If I was to get on with my life I needed to develop some very meaningful relationships with people around and first and foremost a relationship with God. I had found it difficult over the years before my divorce to bring God into my life bec...